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09.08.07

Filed Under: Poetry

We defined Hate
She and I
as light bled into the serotonin soaked morning

Hate! we decreed, sleep and disparate longings tugging at our eyes,
Hate is the feeling of full Love and understanding
that leaves you in a state of repulsion…

New York
Your repugnant streets of filth and spasm
make me Love you and understand you
all too completely

New York
Your Bodegas
no-star five-star low-end high-end slung together
in a Bazaar of glut and orgasm

New York
The place where I fell out of Love with the Old
and fell in Love with the New

New York
The place where I found a thin slice of enlightenment
reading in parks
wandering, searching, vomiting in streets and
worshiping to self-made gods
with glorious dance dance dance

New York
Where I met myself, forgot myself
and then remembered everything with too much clarity
that I once again forced myself to forget

New York
Where I learned truth isn’t for anyone
but the mad, the lovesick, the awkward and the lonely

New York
Home of the Ginsbergian Moloch(!), the Orwellian Future, My Great Longing
and the dreams of Millions
all frustrated, broken yet endlessly hopeful

New York
Home to the heart, mind and body that I Love
for the shortest interval imaginable
ending before its begun
What have I done!

New York
Home
I Love You
I Hate You
I Love You still, in spite of this

New York
Home
I must leave you
and learn to Love you less

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